I've been thinking.

Dangerous, I know but I've worked out why staying where I do now has lifted my mood.
The whole atmosphere reminds me of places where I used to go on holiday as a youngster and where I was happy and enjoying life. It has none of the baggage linked to the old place and so I feel that I am 'allowed' to be happy.
Heddon held me back and dragged me down, I'm glad circumstances forced me to get away and I have Madame to thank for that.
It has been worth all the pain and anguish of the last 2 or 3 years to finally shuck off the shackles that held me down.
Per Ardua Ad Astra was never more apposite.
TTFN