So much I want...

...to say. One day perhaps.

Until that day comes you'll have to make do with mindless drivel about the first thing that comes into my head.

So today: beer, football, sweets and more beer are those things.

That's it, ttfn.

Happiness

I've been a little down in these posts lately. No, I hear you say, you've been little a ray of sunshine brightening our lives (albeit intermittently). It's true though, I have been in a trough for a while now; the prospect of going forward on my own again was pushing me under. Now I've had a bit of a think and I've realised that whatever happens there is no reason to be on such a downer, there are many others in much worse situations than me. At least I have a job and food in my belly, more than many can say.
Now, I doubt if I can ever stop suffering from depression but I can try to look at the positives rather than the negatives and be a little more optimistic.
As Eric Idle sang the other night, always look on the bright side of life. I'm not saying I'm going to little miss sunshine, not possible because I'm a baldy bloke in his fifties but you know what I mean. What I am going to try to do is accentuate the positive, (there's a song in there somewhere).
Anyway, time for Mr Cheery to close for now.
More later, TTFN.

Olympic Closing Ceremony

My jaw is agape for different reasons to the opening ceremony. Surreal.

By the way, the Greek National Anthem is a good tune.

Loneliness

I think loneliness must be one of the hardest emotions to overcome. At times it is something I feel even when I'm in a crowd.
To me it is the absence of love that makes loneliness.
I have been alone and not felt lonely when I have known that the love of a significant other was with me, now though with that feeling gone the full force of loneliness hits.
At times it recedes like a wave running back down a sloping beach then comes crashing back as if a huge roller has tripped up onto a surfing beach with the force of  a steam train, smashing me down onto the hard sand of unhappiness.
I must overcome, I will overcome. But when?
On a lighter note, I wonder why lonely and happy and in 'y' when loneliness and happiness replace the 'y' with an 'i'. The mysteries of spelling.
TTFN

Hello again

I've been away for a few days for work and my pal was down to visit from Glasgow over the weekend so I haven't had much of a chance to write very much recently.
Nothing much has changed since my last ramblings, my love of scones remains unabated and whilst I've not had any since the last lot I made I don't think it will. This is a case of absence making the heart grow fonder, although that really isn't somewhere I want to go just now.
I've found out who my friends are over the last few days and weeks and I will remember them fondly for the way they have rallied round me, even though I probably don't deserve their support, it is still welcome.
The cats seem to be none the worse for their trip to the kennels so I'm pleased about that even though it is always a shame to have to put them in there isn't any other option. Still they were taken good care of, that's the main thing.
There is a thunderstorm happening at the moment but no lightning yet. I used to be scared of thunder when I was a young lad and lightning didn't bother me, now I''m older I realise that it's the lightning which is the thing to be concerned about, thunder can't really hurt you. Funny how ones perceptions change with age.
I really should be writing an updated chapter of my latest training manual but I'm a bit distracted what with one thing and another so it is on the back burner for the rest of today.
I really do hope that things will improve soon, I'm sick of feeling anxious and lonesome. Even though I have had great support from certain friends, I still end up wishing for what I can't have.
Time to stop. Writing this is supposed to be cathartic so as I find myself lapsing into being maudlin I'll finish up and leave it for another time.
TTFN.

Useful talk

I've just had a very useful chat with the CPN at my local doctor's surgery. She has put a lot of my problems into perspective and suggested a couple of things that I can do to make my current situation bearable for the time being and given me hope for the future.
I need to make sure that I become more proactive and less reactive in my dealings with situations.
Starting from today I will be putting into practice the suggestions and will stop being a rabbit in the headlights of life.
Per Ardua Ad Astra.
TTFN.

Here's a thought

Oscar Wilde once said 'if there is one thing worse than being talked about, it is not being talked about'. On a slight tangent from that I do not like being ignored. It is rude and often unkind to ignore someone who is trying to communicate.
Even if you don't like a person there has to be a modicum of politeness and consequently a reply to a perfectly reasonable question or statement.
It doesn't hurt to be polite, or kind for that matter. Nothing can be gained in the long run from ignorance or unkindness, all that produces is discord and unhappiness which could be avoided by a simple kind word.
Sometimes it is difficult with some of the haters on Twitter and suchlike to be able to think of a kind word but maybe a simple reply on the lines of 'Thank you for your opinion, I disagree with you and I'd be grateful if you would desist with your unkindness, goodbye'. You can then block them.
I still would like to think that a measured and thoughtful response will maybe make the haters think twice. Perhaps not, but if one person stops because of a kind word then we will have succeeded.
Time for me to return to cloud-cuckoo land where kindness and politeness are the rule rather than the exception.
TTFN.