The future.

A thought just struck me a couple of minutes ago about how I'm looking at my feelings and emotions. I do have low moods and feelings of anxiety at times but what struck me was that I may have been interpreting the anxious feelings wrongly.
Could it be that what I'm experiencing is not fear or foreboding but expectation? Quite often the worry that I feel is not about a tangible event that is on the horizon but some unknown occurrence which could just as well be good as bad.
I can understand worrying about doctors appointments or dental exams where I know there is the possibility that there will be pain or discomfort involved, but the unknown, the future, should hold no fear, rather it should hold optimism and hope.
Who said the future should be bad? There is no reason why one can't look at what is to come with the hope of happiness rather than the expectation of misery. Sometimes these things are a self-fulfilling prophecy, if one expects doom and gloom maybe that is what you will get. If one looks forward to the future and expects harmony and happiness perhaps that is the more likely outcome.
I don't know. There is sadness and unhappiness in the world, but equally there is much fun and happiness. We can't manage the future, what comes our way comes our way whatever we do, all we can do is try to look for the positives and be optimistic.
I may of course be talking utter tripe but you never know. On that note, be positive; Love and Peace. ttfn x

The best laid plans.

I was all geared up to cut the grass and do a spot if light weeding today until I awoke to a damp morning which knocked that idea on the head. Instead I have been sitting around reading and thinking and generally doing a whole lot of not very much.
My main thinking has been around the trip I would like to take for my birthday week in October and so I've been putting my mind to the various possibilities. Now I know I said I was going to live in the day and not plan too much but I think such trips do need to be planned for so here I am looking on the various trip booking, hotel and airline websites to get an idea of cost. It isn't a cheap activity to travel these days so I may well have to put off my ideal trip, a return to Vegas until another day and cut my cloth a little closer. Having said that, a trip to Vegas for 7 nights is not much more than some trips to the near Continent. This is mainly because the hotels in Vegas tend to be cheaper and they offset the higher transatlantic air fares whilst most of the hotels in Europe are somewhat higher even though the flights are cheaper.
Anyway, enough of that, what I am trying to say is that I need a trip for my birthday week and can't decide where to go. Mind you, in my opinion a good proportion of the fun of travelling is in the planning although some may disagree so that isn't a problem for me.
This year my birthday falls on a Wednesday and as that was the day of the week I was actually born on it will be 56 years to the day on the 15th October when I arrived to bring fun, happiness and a degree of misery to all those I have encountered.
Back to the trip; having set aside Vegas as a destination I am now looking for inspiration and as it is October when I plan to travel it would be best I should say to go somewhere warm. I am toying with Malta or Gibraltar at the moment so I think I'll go now and look up those particular destinations and see what's what. Don't be surprised though to find that I've decided on Vegas. Even though I say I've discounted it for now you just never know. I'm in love with the place for some unaccountable reason so there is always a voice in the back of my mind saying "go to Vegas".
Still, all will be revealed in good time so until then, Love and Peace. ttfn x

Not much.

I've not had much to say lately so I haven't been writing on here since I see no point in posting for posting's sake.
I managed with the help of The Brother to get the garden planted over the Easter Holidays. I haven't been out to see how it's going lately since it has not been dry since we finished. That is good in a way as it meant that I wasn't constantly out watering everything so I shouldn't complain but you know me, nothing I like better than a good whinge.
Anyway, that's all really I just wanted to let you all (all? who am I kidding?) know that I'm still in the land of the living and that the old beard is coming along nicely.
So ttfn. Peace and Love. x

A Poem?

Back Together

We get back together

What do we do?

Make the same mistakes?

Split up again.

You’ll never change

Nor will I

A new approach from both

That will work

A change of attitude

Forget the past

Then it would work

If not

No chance of success

The power of words.

I am in the process of reading "How to Stop Worrying and Start Living" by Dale Carnegie, the man who wrote "How to Win Friends and Influence People". This book is a work of genius; it has changed my whole outlook on life in the space of less than ten days.
A week past Monday I was sitting under a cloud of gloom caused by Madame's marriage and the death of an old pal. Now, sad as I am at both events I have realised that there was nothing I could say or do to influence either one. I will remember the happy times with both and try to maintain a supportive contact with my pal's wife but I have realised that wishing for the past to change and the inevitable not occur is a waste of time, effort and emotion.
Most of my past problems have revolved around wishing things had been different or worrying about things that may or may not happen. I accept those things I can't change, will try to change those things which I can and learn from past mistakes, forget them and move on.
I intend to live in the day, what is past is gone and learned from, what is to come can be planned for if I know it is coming and any shocks and surprises I will deal with in the best way that I can by working out what I can influence and leaving anything that I can't influence up to fate.
As Fred Fuller Shedd said, "You can't saw sawdust".
I may still have down days but at least my new philosophy will mean that I am not dwelling on the past, or fretting about the future.
Peace and Love, ttfn. x

If at first.

If at first

If at first you don’t succeed they say

then you must find another way

so gird your loins

and lets away

to live to fight another day.

The grass is greener

The Grass is greener

The grass is greener on the other side

So the saying goes

Is the grass so green beyond?

No one really knows

Since when they are on that other ground

The grass is greener on the other side.