...looking forward to my upcoming trip to Las Vegas. I haven't had a holiday in a long time and although I have been travelling a lot for work lately, it's been a while since had any leisure travel.
I am much more relaxed than I was 12 months ago and I hope a holiday will really help to maintain that mood.
I started this post on October 3 and you can see the difference from the September 29 one. I really need this holiday and to get away from it all for a few days. As I said, it will give me a chance to recharge my batteries and maybe gain a new perspective on my life ahead and my attitude towards relationships both past and future.
ttfn.
Monday, 7 October 2013
Do you know...
..that feeling when you think you are getting over a break-up and realise that you aren't? That's where I am just now, or maybe not. I don't know really, it all feels very odd. I am conflicted.
Not much of a subject for a post. Whatever I write will seem a bit pathetic somehow. I'm not a kid any more, I'll be 55 in two weeks and should really be adult enough to able to cope with the situation. It has been 12 months now since Madame left for the USA and the longer she is away the less likely she is to come back.
I started writing this on September 29 and couldn't finish it because I didn't know where I was going with it. I have such ambivalent feelings just now that I can't come up with a cogent explanation of my current emotional state.
Maybe I'll have a better idea once I've had a holiday and been able to relax and take stock.
ttfn
Not much of a subject for a post. Whatever I write will seem a bit pathetic somehow. I'm not a kid any more, I'll be 55 in two weeks and should really be adult enough to able to cope with the situation. It has been 12 months now since Madame left for the USA and the longer she is away the less likely she is to come back.
I started writing this on September 29 and couldn't finish it because I didn't know where I was going with it. I have such ambivalent feelings just now that I can't come up with a cogent explanation of my current emotional state.
Maybe I'll have a better idea once I've had a holiday and been able to relax and take stock.
ttfn
Saturday, 28 September 2013
Driving back...
from Alnwick this morning I was struck by how beautiful Northumberland is in the Autumn. The trees are just beginning to turn and there was a slight mist just being burned off by the early morning sunshine. There was little traffic about and the peace was such that you could nearly taste it.
Now Northumberland is lovely at any time of year but I think it really does blossom in the Autumn, I don't know what it is, it just seems that the whole landscape takes on a gentler mode. It makes one glad to be so lucky as to be living in such a wonderful place.
That more people don't visit has always amazed me. In the Summer months the main A1 road is crowded with cars full of people from all parts of the UK and beyond all going through the county to Scotland without even a sideways glance. Perhaps if a few of them took a moment to look around them they would realise that perhaps a detour might be in order to take in the wonderful coastline, historic houses and castles or the rugged moorland. Still, the fact is that they don't and it really is their loss.
Anyway, enough of this waxing lyrical about my home county. I'm off to make a cup of tea (Ringtons, of course) and consider trying to move The Story along. I have neglected poor Bob for too long and I must rectify the situation. These tales won't write themselves and if I'm ever going to become a published writer I really ought to write.
So Peace and Love until next time, ttfn.
PS. I was really rather pleased this morning to discover that the wonderful actress Minnie Driver had followed me on Twitter. It made me happy for some unknown reason. A lovely lady.
Right, ttfn again.
Now Northumberland is lovely at any time of year but I think it really does blossom in the Autumn, I don't know what it is, it just seems that the whole landscape takes on a gentler mode. It makes one glad to be so lucky as to be living in such a wonderful place.
That more people don't visit has always amazed me. In the Summer months the main A1 road is crowded with cars full of people from all parts of the UK and beyond all going through the county to Scotland without even a sideways glance. Perhaps if a few of them took a moment to look around them they would realise that perhaps a detour might be in order to take in the wonderful coastline, historic houses and castles or the rugged moorland. Still, the fact is that they don't and it really is their loss.
Anyway, enough of this waxing lyrical about my home county. I'm off to make a cup of tea (Ringtons, of course) and consider trying to move The Story along. I have neglected poor Bob for too long and I must rectify the situation. These tales won't write themselves and if I'm ever going to become a published writer I really ought to write.
So Peace and Love until next time, ttfn.
PS. I was really rather pleased this morning to discover that the wonderful actress Minnie Driver had followed me on Twitter. It made me happy for some unknown reason. A lovely lady.
Right, ttfn again.
Friday, 27 September 2013
So.
I left home in 1979 at the age of 20. I lived alone until 1982 when I lived for 12 months with my first wife. From 1983 to 1988 I lived alone. I then stayed at home for 12 months with my parents. In 1989 I started living alone again until 2003 when Madame and I started living together. She left in September 2012 and I lived alone until December 2012. I started living alone again in March 2013 and am still living a singleton life with little prospect of that changing in the foreseeable future.
That all means I have been living alone for nearly 24 years out of the last 34. You'd think I would be used to it by now.
I'm not. ttfn
That all means I have been living alone for nearly 24 years out of the last 34. You'd think I would be used to it by now.
I'm not. ttfn
Tuesday, 24 September 2013
Being on your own...
....can be awful because you sleep alone, awaken alone, go out alone, come home alone, eat alone, shop alone, holiday alone.
Being alone can also be good because you sleep alone, awaken alone, go out alone, come home alone, eat alone, shop alone, holiday alone.
Sometimes though it is difficult to not have a hand to hold, or other physical contact which shall remain nameless here or a friendly ear to hear how your day was.
Still you have to make the best of what life has handed you I guess so onwards my friends.
Love and Peace ttfn x
Being alone can also be good because you sleep alone, awaken alone, go out alone, come home alone, eat alone, shop alone, holiday alone.
Sometimes though it is difficult to not have a hand to hold, or other physical contact which shall remain nameless here or a friendly ear to hear how your day was.
Still you have to make the best of what life has handed you I guess so onwards my friends.
Love and Peace ttfn x
Friday, 20 September 2013
I hate being single
I said this the other day on both Twitter and Facebook. Thinking about it, I do hate being single but not so much that I will go out with anyone just to be in a couple. That wouldn't be fair on them, or me and would end badly as have most, if not all of my relationships.
My problem is that I am fine at the start and then can either become possessive or take the person for-granted. Neither of which is a good way to maintain a good relationship with someone.
I am very insecure and that means I cannot believe that anyone would want to waste their time with me when they could be off having a better time with someone else. It seems that attitude is a self fulfilling prophesy in that everyone I have ever cared for has done just that.
I will need an adjustment in my attitude towards any new partner who enters my life or the rocky road to singleness will be trodden again, assuming that a new partner does show up. There's no guarantee that will happen so until it does I will take each day as it comes and make the best of what life sends my way.
Peace and Love x ttfn
My problem is that I am fine at the start and then can either become possessive or take the person for-granted. Neither of which is a good way to maintain a good relationship with someone.
I am very insecure and that means I cannot believe that anyone would want to waste their time with me when they could be off having a better time with someone else. It seems that attitude is a self fulfilling prophesy in that everyone I have ever cared for has done just that.
I will need an adjustment in my attitude towards any new partner who enters my life or the rocky road to singleness will be trodden again, assuming that a new partner does show up. There's no guarantee that will happen so until it does I will take each day as it comes and make the best of what life sends my way.
Peace and Love x ttfn
Tuesday, 17 September 2013
I must...
...stop hankering for that which I can't have and make the best of that which I do.
I have a job, a roof over my head, enough money to get by on, friends (albeit far away and dispersed) who care about me and reasonable health (although I need to lose some weight) so I am much better placed in life than many people and I really should appreciate all this and stop 'wishing I was happy'. I have nothing to be unhappy about when you look at the great scheme of things.
So, I must live my life and realise that what has to be will be and just get on with it.
I hope that anyone else with a similar mindset to mine can take this on and do the same.
Love and Peace x. ttfn
I have a job, a roof over my head, enough money to get by on, friends (albeit far away and dispersed) who care about me and reasonable health (although I need to lose some weight) so I am much better placed in life than many people and I really should appreciate all this and stop 'wishing I was happy'. I have nothing to be unhappy about when you look at the great scheme of things.
So, I must live my life and realise that what has to be will be and just get on with it.
I hope that anyone else with a similar mindset to mine can take this on and do the same.
Love and Peace x. ttfn
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